Sunday, August 6, 2017

Enough is enough.

These past few weeks the devil has attacked my mind in the area of self-image.. I just feel like I don't look good enough, I'm not beautiful, I'm not attractive and so on.. I realize that I have to make a bold decision. I have to unfollow "fashion bloggers" on my Instagram that have been a big influence in my life.. I know it's hard to not be wanting to look good in this era. Everything around us just bombards us with the message of "buy this product, it will make your skin glow. Drink this vitamin, it will make you look younger" and the list goes on.. I am powerless to stop that ads. I know we're just gonna be fed with those kinds of thing everyday.. The choice is on us. Do we wanna buy those lies or not? I'm not saying that all beauty companies are liars.. some products do really work! But, do we want to be defined by them? Until when are we gonna be satisfied? The truth is, we're never gonna be satisfied unless we find our identity in Christ. I grew up in the entertainment industry. I started modeling when I was a baby! I remember being a model of a baby product. I just felt the need to always look good until I got to a point where my heart screamed "enouuugh!!" I can't live like that anymore.. I can't keep up with this world. I can't keep up with the latest beauty products. I can't keep up with the latest fashion style. I just can't keep up with the trends. I know that I'm still a part of this entertainment industry but I really can't be like the (most) people in this industry.. if not keeping up with the latest trends/fads is causing me to be left behind, then it is better for me to be left behind in this world rather than being left behind in my spiritual life.. I'm sorry if this post sounds so intense, I just can't help it anymore. If you're a fashion blogger/a beauty blogger, I still love you ❤️ this is not your fault, this is just something that happens in this fallen world. I know some beauty bloggers who are still real and honest on their posts.. beauty is not on the outside but beauty is in your mind and heart.

Xoxo,


Yemima H.

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Inner Beauty vs Outer Beauty

There are so many technologies for beauty nowadays. Eyelashes extension, face-lift, eyebrows tattoo, skin-whitening, body-fat removal. The list goes on and on.. Women nowadays are striving to achieve perfection. Don't get me wrong, I love looking beautiful. I love beautiful things.  But, too many times we work hard to look beautiful on the outside and we forget to take care of our inner beauty.

When was the last time we got jealous of someone? When was the last time we hurt someone with our words? When was the last time we thought of negative thoughts towards someone? When was the last time we desired earthly things/earthly romance? I asked those questions to myself as well.. We can't let our heart wander around by itself. We can't expect to have a clean heart without cleaning our heart each day. It's like we're expecting to have clean skin/face but we never wash them.I've been disciplining myself to take care of my heart more than anything else. Don't wash your face every morning before having a quiet time with The Lord. If you clean your face with so many skin treatments (face wash, lotion, toner, etc) Why don't we clean our hearts with The Word of God over and over? There's this bible app that has helped me a lot to take care of my heart. You can download it on your iphone/iPad/any gadgets (haha I'm not sponsored by Apple) and you can choose the devotional readings that you want. Girls, let's pay more attention to our inner beauty more than anything else. For it says in Proverbs 4:13 "Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it." Our life springs out from our heart. Therefore, guard your heart. Above all else, above beauty itself.

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Be Patient


Patience is not really my strength. I can remember how many times in my life I got so stressed out because God had told me to wait and be patient. Whether it's about career or relationship or even ministry, being patient is not really my strongest characteristic.. As I'm writing this blog, I am sitting down in a hotel in Bali where many couples holding hands, snuggling, or even more (I don't really have to go into details). It's not easy to be patient while waiting for my time to come. I've shared in my previous blogs that I've always desired marriage. I desire to be married. I am preparing myself to be married one day. But, one thing that we forget about marriage. We need a lot of patience in marriage. I have seen many couples who got involved into arguments just because they lacked of patience. We need patience in every area of our lives. It's not easy, especially when we look at other people's lives and we see them getting what they want in a split second. I don't know which area you're struggling with. You may be struggling with sinful thoughts, you might be thinking "why am I saving myself for my future husband while other people can date around? I don't even know who my future will be, I don't even know if I will ever get married.. The act of being patient is not just for a reward that is waiting ahead of us. the act of being patient is also an act of worship.  How many times I found myself imagining me getting married to someone, kissing him, & waking up next to him then I know it's wrong. In Song of Solomons 2:7, it says "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires" I know that kind of thought is wrong. Although people might say it's normal, I don't want to be impatient and imagine things that I should not imagine. Being patient is hard, but, being patient is possible. Philippians 4:13 says that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". 'I can do all things' is not only for getting the job that you have longed for, it's not only about being accepted in the university that you've been dreaming of, "I can do all things" means we can be the persons that God has made us to be. Yes, we can be patient. Not by our strength, but by Christ who strengthens us.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Submit under God's/My Parent's Authority?

Everyone knows how my parents were so overprotective over me. I know, as the youngest child (Note to you: I am 12 years younger than my 3rd sister and 15 years younger than my eldest sister. I have 3 older sisters and one older brother so that makes me the little baby), my family can be very protective over me and cautious about my life decisions. I remember one moment where I felt like I would never be able to leave my house just because my parents were so protective over me. Since my dad passed away, my mom has actually become more protective over me. Often times, I lost hope that one day God could use me and send me to many nations.. knowing that my family wants me to always be around them. But then one thing hit me pretty hard "God is bigger than anything". God is bigger than my fear, my worries, my desires, my dreams, my problems even my family. He can do anything. I know that God must have put me in my family for a reason. This is my training ground. I don't know about you, but for me, there are times when I wonder if God's purposes will be done in my life and that's when I need to remind myself Romans 8:28 "For we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose". Underline "according to His purpose". If you believe that something is really what God has called you to do then you don't have to be afraid of the result. As I said, God is bigger than your situations, He is bigger than your circumstances. I always remind myself of this "God will open a way when it seems there is no way". Sometimes it seems there is no way for me to leave my family or my mom for missions/ministries overseas. Sometimes I feel like I should give  up on my calling. But, one thing I know: God will make a way when it seems there is no way.. Just submit under His authority, trust in His promises. He is working even when it seems like He is not.

xoxo,

Yemima.